Life Without Encouraging Words
As a young child I remember running from the dinner table at night sobbing, because my father was picking on me for the way I would chew my food or drop my fork. Anything I did could become a reason to strike at me. Because Dad did this, my brothers would often join in and make me an easy target for their teasing, too. I began to believe I somehow deserved this treatment. It was my normal. Who would do well with this normal?
Turning The Corner On Abuse
You don't overcome years of bad feeling overnight. What happened is I got used to expecting the worst from other people and also from myself. And this meant I couldn't reach my potential, or be really happy. Living in constant self-reproach or self-criticism keeps the pain going. Change happens literally by asking for help from people outside the family, like school counselors, teachers, mentors, support groups, and seeking friends that support healthier thinking. You can't change your whole life view by yourself, and it takes time.
My Choice Now
I grew up in a family with addiction and received a lot of non-stop negative messages, but that does not mean I can’t reinvent the way I feel and think about myself. Now, I don’t forget to whisper sweet nothings to myself daily about all the amazing things I have discovered. Even if I don’t yet believe it all yet, I say it anyway! I owe it to myself. I owe it to that little girl.
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