My First AA Meeting

08 August 2017 Written by 

Pondering the tragedy of addiction and the miracle of recovery is what we do at Reach Out Recovery (ROR). As a founder of ROR, I think about addiction and recovery almost all the time. Addiction is a global pandemic. Recovery is one important solution. Yet, addiction and recovery are not yet linked in public awareness.

One reason is that addiction is so catastrophic and so persistent that many people don’t believe that recovering from it is possible. Others don’t know that 12-step programs can help pretty much anyone impacted by addiction.

It's easier not to do the research

As a journalist and mystery writer, I was used to doing research. I knew all about addiction from the law enforcement side. My novels showed the kinds of crimes that could result from substance abuse. When my own loved ones became addicted, however, I didn’t do the research. I was an educated person and, I thought, a good and caring Mom. I simply couldn’t believe that addiction (think crazy homeless people under the bridge and a lot worse) might happen to someone in my own family. It was unthinkable. I wasn't attending any meetings to explore how I would feel and what I would do if it got a lot worse. I just hoped and prayed it wouldn't.

Addiction is scary

Addiction is so frightening that a parent or spouse can remain in denial for a long time, even forever. Family members also think if only their loved ones receive treatment, or stop using, life will return to normal. The addiction dynamic doesn’t go away simply because someone stops using. The causes and the wreckage of addiction need to be dealt with, too.

My 12 Step Research

It was only after my loved ones went into recovery (for maybe the tenth time) that I began my own research and recovery journey. Whether my child recovered or not, this time I needed some help restoring my own life. I started by attending an open AA meeting. I wanted to know what it feels like to give up the thing you love most and then have to live in a world that’s all about drinking. It took me 15 years to be willing to learn. 

My first AA meeting

I didn’t walk into a room full of strangers as I hoped I would. As a local person and a magazine writer, I knew people in that AA church group, and they were surprised to see me. I hadn’t told anyone about addiction in my family, and I wasn’t known as a big drinker. What was I doing at AA? 

I called it research

At that AA meeting I heard some interesting things, and wanted to know more. Wanting to know more is what journalists do. Things always occur to me when I go on site visits, like prison, or when I attended to civilian police academy , or learned how to shoot a gun. At AA it occurred to me that not drinking myself might give me some more insight into the nature of addiction and sobriety. I also thought my not drinking might create a new bond between me and loved ones who were struggling with substance abuse.

Curiosity is a great thing

I took a chip to see what it would feel like and made a commitment not to have a martini or a glass of wine—well, maybe not forever, but for three months or so. Call me shallow, I also thought I might lose some weight. For me it was like giving something up for Lent. Except it was in August, and it has lasted for nine years on August 25, 2017. I wasn't a heavy drinker, but sobriety opened my eyes to the benefits of a different kind of life. Personal research brought me and my family together and taught us a new way of communicating. I'd say that was a benefit I wasn't expecting.

That's the message we want to send

Family members do sometimes attend AA meetings, but many have never been to one. For me, the encounter with AA led to an exploration of Al-Anon where I learned a lot more about the addiction family dynamic and leading a healthier, happier life. And that's how my passion for recovery education began.

Content Originally Published By: Leslie Glass @ Reach Out Recovery

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Leslie Glass

Leslie Glass is the winner of the American Society of Addiction Medicine 2016 Media Award for her groundbreaking documentary "The Secret World Of Recovery." She is a journalist, playwright, the author of 15 novels and the founder of Reach Out Recovery. She is the producer/director of "The Secret World Of Recovery," and the teen addiction prevention documentary "The Silent Majority" which was distributed by American Public Television to all PBS stations in 2015. Leslie is currently developing more websites and technology to further the recovery and healthy living cause.
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